My Journey

My path wasn't linear. It has been a journey of remembering who I was beneath the survival patterns I learned along the way.

Growing up, I experienced trauma that shaped the way my brain, body, and nervous system responded to the world. Like many people, I wasn't taught how to understand or regulate my emotions. Instead, I learned to adapt. I became hyperaware of other people's needs and struggled with codependency, abandonment, people pleasing, emotional reactivity, and constantly searching for my worth outside of myself.

As I entered my late teens and early twenties, those patterns continued to unfold. I sought validation through relationships, used unhealthy coping strategies to numb emotional pain, and moved from place to place, hoping that a different environment would somehow create a different version of me. I lived in California, New Orleans, and Las Vegas, often moving every six months, searching for a place that finally felt like home.

During that season of my life, I struggled deeply with my mental health. I was eventually diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and spent years moving in and out of the traditional mental health system searching for answers. While many professionals genuinely wanted to help, I still felt there was something deeper beneath the symptoms that hadn't yet been addressed.

Everything began to change when I met a metaphysical mentor who introduced me to a powerful three part Transfiguration Forgiveness process. Through that work, I began taking responsibility for my own healing, uncovering inherited patterns, examining my beliefs, and reconnecting with the person I truly was beneath years of conditioning.

For the first time in my life, I felt grounded.

But while my perspective had changed, my body was still carrying the imprint of what I had lived through. I continued to experience intense emotional reactions and nervous system responses that I couldn't simply think my way out of.

That was when I discovered Brainspotting.

Brainspotting became a missing piece in my own healing journey. It gave me another way to explore experiences through the brain, body, and nervous system that words alone had never fully reached. As I continued the work, I noticed greater regulation, my emotional reactions softened, and I experienced a level of peace, stability, and freedom I never thought was possible.

My journey didn't stop there. It sparked an insatiable curiosity.

I immersed myself in neuroscience, Brainspotting, somatic integration, consciousness, sound healing, generational patterns, nervous system regulation, and the remarkable capacity of the human brain to adapt and change. I came to understand that many of the patterns we struggle with are not character flaws. They can be intelligent adaptations that once helped us survive.

Along the way, I also learned something that fundamentally changed the way I understand this work: a good practitioner does not position themselves as the person with all of the answers. They recognize that each and every one of us has the capacity to access our own inner knowing. Sometimes we simply need tools, space, support, and guidance that allow us to go deeper and learn how to listen to what is already within us.

This understanding connected deeply with the teachings of Malidoma Patrice Somé, an initiated elder of the Dagara people of Burkina Faso whose work brought Indigenous African wisdom into conversation with the Western world. Somé wrote and taught about ritual, community, nature, initiation, purpose, and ways of knowing that can become disconnected or forgotten within modern Western life. His wisdom reinforced something I had been discovering within my own journey: perhaps growth isn't always about searching outside of ourselves for another person to give us the answers. Sometimes it is about creating the conditions that allow us to remember, listen, reconnect, and discover what is already within us.

That wisdom has stayed with me and deeply influences how I approach my work today. I don't believe my role is to tell another person who they are, what they should believe, or what their answers should be. My role is to offer tools, ask questions, create space, and walk alongside people as they learn to listen more deeply to themselves.

Today, I don't believe people are broken.

I believe our brains, bodies, and nervous systems carry stories and adaptations shaped by what we've experienced. When we create conditions of safety, compassion, curiosity, and supportive practices, meaningful change becomes possible.

Neither my mentor nor Brainspotting "fixed" me. They offered guidance, tools, and space that allowed me to reconnect with the wisdom already within me. I believe healing ultimately comes from our willingness to engage in our own process, the brain and nervous system's incredible capacity for change, and my faith that God has designed us with an innate ability to move toward wholeness.

The deeper I went into my own process, the more I realized that healing wasn't about becoming someone new. It was about remembering who I was beneath everything I had learned to become in order to survive.

That belief is the foundation of Awakening Metamorphosis.

Today, it is my privilege to walk alongside others as they reconnect with themselves, transform suffering into understanding, growth, and freedom, and discover that beneath survival is the person they were always created to be.